Oh the disappointment!

If you've been a faithful reader (and you are, aren't you?) you will remember that one of my goals this year was to run the Colfax half marathon. It goes through the zoo people - the zoo!

apparently the only other US marathon that goes through the zoo is in Baltimore

It's on May 18th - 7 weeks, 4 days and 12 hours at the time of writing - or 53 days.

I should be well into my training by now - and instead I am slowly walking for 20 minutes. I can't imagine that I will have the energy, or stamina, to make it 13 miles in 53 days.

That's a dream killer. And I'm sad - really sad.

I think it is true - there's an ecard for everything

Whoever thought that I would be so sad that I can't run. It still amuses me, so I can't imagine how tickled you must be! It's still a mystery to me that I even began to run. 

On my daily walks now, I can feel my legs trying to take off. I cannot wait until I am well enough to run again. I think that will be the true test for me of being recovered.

I am missing running more than I ever thought that I would, and I think that my mood is suffering from it too. But being able to get out and walk everyday, especially when it is nice and sunny like it was today, is helping my mood incredibly.

sad truth right now

And today's little excursion was a trip to King Soopers (supermarket) all by myself. Like a grownup. I know your day isn't complete until you have all the deets on my boring life!!

Love till tomorrow,

Hugs

Megan

I like Mondays too

Welcome to 2014.

Here's what we saw last night Downtown with Willie and John. Good job Denver - I was pretty impressed.


I've been waiting for this day for quite a while. Goodbye to the year of horrors - I'm ready for a new start.
I've always loved a new beginning...
- a new pencil
- especially a new journal
- a new month
- a new week (hello Monday!)
- a new morning
- even a new pack of chips is better than a day old opened one!

So of course, the start of a new year is like the Grand Daddy of all new beginning. (do not let me start about how exciting it was for the start of a new millennium!!!!)
I love the possibilities that all this newness offers. I set goals - NOT resolutions (and that's really because they don't usually change from one year to the next) and I've got a brand new set of 365 days to get them all done! Don't bother asking why it needs to be a new year to start on some of these, it's just easier to get my head in the game.

one of them is to turn the calendar every day!

And of course. as we know!, things don't always end up the way that we imagine that they will. There is just no way that this time last year as I was dreaming about all of the possibilities that the year offered that I thought it would end with me getting ready to have radiation treatment.
But even after the year of suckish proportions that we've just endured, I still look forward to this year as one that will be one of the best ever.
Regardless of what happens, regardless of how the year ends, I've just decided that this will be a better year.
Radiation is only 33 days out of this 365 - that leaves me 332 to make it a year to remember.
I know that you are dying to know what sort of goals I've set (just pretend you care, k?!) so here they are:
- finish my first half marathon (Colfax in May)

the half runs through the zoo - how much fun is that?

- to Kill Fred Dead - duh!

this is what I imagine Fred looks like - I'm sure it's nothing at all like this, but I need a visual!

- to get into my healthy weight range via Weight Watchers

love this program. I go Friday mornings - meet me there?

- to finish level 347 on Candy Crush (I always give myself something that's really silly easy!!)

it's been about two and a half months now... I'll get it eventually!!

- to read through the Bible (I used to do this every year, but have done different reading plans for a few years now. But I miss it - some of the people in there feel like old friends and family to me!

I use a Bible reading plan that NIV had in the Student Bible - some OT, NT and a Psalm or Proverb every day.

- to get some real definition in my arms - hello shake weight!

yep - that's what I aim for.. got the crazy down already!!!!!

I've got some other more personal ones also, they may or may not show up here... oh the suspense may kill you!!!
So there you have it - a new year. Love it

Hugs
Megan

Taking Fred out for a run

Not sure if I have shared this yet. But I am a new runner. One of those who just can't understand why everyone around me doesn't want to come rum with me.
Also - wondering why the heck it took ME so long to figure out how much I love it!

Hey - I never said it was pretty!!!!!
Will's School District's 5K, Oct 13th

I hadn't run since Monday and my body and mind were feeling it. I'm in no way fast (averaging a 12:30 mile) but I am improving.
Or at least I was.
So today's run was hard. For so many reasons.
Usually after I've had such a long time between runs I feel great. My legs are a little bouncy and I just really enjoy getting out there. But today I just wasn't feeling it.
I could feel Fred right from the beginning half mile walk to the trail. And he didn't feel happy at all.
And perhaps the Panda Express for lunch wasn't the best choice either - my belly was not happy either.
I had wanted to get in 4 miles - but then changed that down to 3, and by the time my Garmin beeped after the first mile I was contemplating turning around right then.
It hit me then - I have a tumor.
I HAVE a tumor. I have a TUMOR.
Things may need to change in my life. My life may never be the same.
And my dream of training for my first half in May (Colfax Marathon) may not be realistic.

Before today I was still in a bit of denial. I WILL run until I can't.
Today I may have seen that that could happen a lot sooner that I had ever imagined.
Colfax will still happen for me - but it may look a lot more like a walk than a run, and it probably wont look at all like the times that I was looking at last month.(dreaming of really!)